part of a creature which had once so loved me. But this feeling soon
gave place to irritation. And then came, as if to my final and irrevocable
overthrow, the spirit of PERVERSENESS. Of this spirit philosophy
takes no account. Yet I am not more sure that my soul lives, than I am
that perverseness is one of the primitive impulses of the human heart -
one of the indivisible primary faculties, or sentiments, which give
direction to the character of man. Who has not, a hundred times, found
himself committing a vile or a silly action, for no other reason than
because he knows he should not? Have we not a perpetual inclination, in
the teeth of our best judgment, to violate that which is Law, merely
because we understand it to be such? This spirit of perverseness, I say,
came to my final overthrow. It was this unfathomable longing of the
soul to vex itself - to offer violence to its own nature - to do wrong for
the wrong's sake only - that urged me to continue and finally to
consummate the injury I had inflicted upon the unoffending brute. One
morning, in cool blood, I slipped a noose about its neck and hung it to
the limb of a tree - hung it with the tears streaming from my eyes, and
with the bitterest remorse at my heart - hung it because I knew that it
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had loved me, and because I felt it had given me no reason of offence -
hung it because I knew that in so doing I was committing a sin - a
deadly sin that would so jeopardize my immortal soul as to place it - if
such a thing were possible - even beyond the reach of the infinite mercy
of the Most Merciful and Most Terrible God.
On the night of the day on which this cruel deed was done, I was
aroused from sleep by the cry of 'Fire!' The curtains of my bed were in
flames. The whole house was blazing. It was with great difficulty that
my wife, a servant, and myself, made our escape from the
conflagration
3
. The destruction was complete. My entire worldly wealth
was swallowed up, and I resigned myself thenceforward to despair.
I am above the weakness of seeking to establish a sequence of
cause and effect between the disaster and the atrocity. But I am detailing
a chain of facts, and wish not to leave even a possible link imperfect. On
the day succeeding the fire, I visited the ruins. The walls, with one
exception, had fallen in. This exception was found in a compartment
wall, not very thick, which stood about the middle of the house, and
against which had rested the head of my bed. The plastering had here, in
great measure, resisted the action of the fire - a fact which I attributed to
its having been recently spread. About this wall a dense crowd were
collected, and many persons seemed to be examining a particular portion
of it with very minute and eager attention. The words 'strange!'
'singular!' and other similar expressions, excited my curiosity. I
approached and saw, as if graven in bas-relief
4
upon the white surface,
the figure of a gigantic cat. The impression was given with an accuracy
truly marvellous. There was a rope about the animal's neck.
When I first beheld this apparition - for I could scarcely regard it as
less - my wonder and my terror were extreme. But at length reflection
came to my aid. The cat, I remembered, had been hung in a garden
adjacent to the house. Upon the alarm of fire, this garden had been
immediately filled by the crowd - by some one of whom the animal must
have been cut from the tree and thrown, through an open window, into
my chamber. This had probably been done with the view of arousing me
from sleep. The falling of other walls had compressed the victim of my
cruelty into the substance of the freshly-spread plaster; the lime of
which, with the flames and the ammonia from the carcass, had then
accomplished the portraiture as I saw it.
Although I thus readily accounted to my reason, if not altogether to
my conscience, for the startling fact just detailed, it did not the less fail
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to make a deep impression upon my fancy. For months I could not rid
myself of the phantasm of the cat; and, during this period, there came
back into my spirit a half-sentiment that seemed, but was not, remorse. I
went so far as to regret the loss of the animal, and to look about me,
among the vile haunts which I now habitually frequented, for another pet
of the same species, and of somewhat similar appearance, with which to
supply its place.
One night as I sat, half-stupefied, in a den of more than infamy, my
attention was suddenly drawn to some black object, reposing upon the
head of one of the immense hogsheads
5
of gin, or of rum, which
constituted the chief furniture of the apartment. I had been looking
steadily at the top of this hogshead for some minutes, and what now
caused me surprise was the fact that I had not sooner perceived the
object thereupon. I approached it, and touched it with my hand. It was a
black cat - a very large one - fully as large as Pluto, and closely
resembling him in every respect but one. Pluto had not a white hair upon
any portion of his body; but this cat had a large, although indefinite,
splotch of white, covering nearly the whole region of the breast.
Upon my touching him, he immediately arose, purred loudly,
rubbed against my hand, and appeared delighted with my notice. This,
then, was the very creature of which I was in search. I at once offered to
purchase it of the landlord; but this person made no claim to it - knew
nothing of it - had never seen it before.
I continued my caresses, and when I prepared to go home, the
animal evinced a disposition to accompany me. I permitted it to do so;
occasionally stooping and patting it as I proceeded. When it reached the
house it domesticated itself at once, and became immediately a great
favourite with my wife.
For my own part, I soon found a dislike to it arising within me.
This was just the reverse of what I had anticipated; but - I know not how
or why it was - its evident fondness for myself rather disgusted and
annoyed me. By slow degrees, these feelings of disgust and annoyance
rose into the bitterness of hatred. I avoided the creature; a certain sense
of shame, and the remembrance of my former deed of cruelty,
preventing me from physically abusing it. I did not, for some weeks,
strike, or otherwise violently ill- use it; but gradually - very gradually - I
came to look upon it with unutterable loathing, and to flee silently from
its odious presence, as from the breath of a pestilence.
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What added, no doubt, to my hatred of the beast, was the
discovery, on the morning after I brought it home, that, like Pluto, it also
had been deprived of one of its eyes. This circumstance, however, only
endeared it to my wife, who, as I have already said, possessed, in a high
degree, that humanity of feeling which had once been my distinguishing
trait, and the source of many of my simplest and purest pleasures.
With my aversion to this cat, however, its partiality for myself
seemed to increase. It followed my footsteps with a pertinacity which it
would be difficult to make the reader comprehend. Whenever I sat, it
would crouch beneath my chair, or spring upon my knees, covering me
with its loathsome caresses. If I arose to walk, it would get between my
feet, and thus nearly throw me down, or, fastening its long and sharp
claws in my dress, clamber, in this manner, to my breast. At such times,
although I longed to destroy it with a blow, I was yet withheld from so
doing, partly by a memory of my former crime, but chiefly - let me
confess it at once - by absolute dread of the beast.
This dread was not exactly a dread of physical evil - and yet I
should be at a loss how otherwise to define it. I am almost ashamed to
own - yes, even in this felon's cell, I am almost ashamed to own - that
the terror and horror with which the animal inspired me, had been
heightened by one of the merest chimeras it would be possible to
conceive. My wife had called my attention, more than once, to the
character of the mark of white hair, of which I have spoken, and which
constituted the sole visible difference between the strange beast and the
one I had destroyed. The reader will remember that this mark, although
large, had been originally very indefinite; but, by slow degrees - degrees
nearly imperceptible, and which for a long time my reason struggled to
reject as fanciful - it had, at length, resumed a rigorous distinctness of
outline. It was now the representation of an object that I shudder to name
- and for this, above all, I loathed, and dreaded, and would have rid
myself of the monster had I dared - it was now, I say, the image of a
hideous - of a ghastly thing - of the GALLOWS! - oh, mournful and
terrible engine of horror and of crime - of agony and death!
And now was I indeed wretched beyond the wretchedness of mere
humanity. And a brute beast - whose fellow I had contemptuously
destroyed - a brute beast to work out for me - for me, a man, fashioned
in the image of the High God - so much of insufferable woe! Alas!
neither by day nor by night knew I the blessing of rest any more! During
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the former the creature left me no moment alone; and, in the latter, I
started, hourly, from dreams of unutterable fear, to find the hot breath of
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