TEXT 5. DOG STAR
Arthur Ch. Clarke
When I heard Laika's frantic barking, my
first reaction was one of annoyance. I turned
over in my bunk and murmured sleepily, "Shut
up, you silly bitch." That dreamy interlude lasted
only a fraction of a second, then consciousness
returned - and, with it, fear. Fear of loneliness,
and fear of madness.
For a moment I dared not open my eyes, I
was afraid of what I might see. Reason told me that no dog had ever set
foot upon this world, that Laika was separated from me by a quarter of a
million miles of space - and, far more irrevocably, five years of time.
"You've been dreaming," I told myself angrily. "Stop being a fool -
open your eyes! You won't see anything except the glow of the wall
paint."
That was right, of course. The tiny cabin was empty, the door
tightly closed. I was alone with my memories, overwhelmed by the
transcendental sadness that often comes when some bright dream fades
into drab reality. The sense of loss was so desolating that I longed to
return to sleep. It was well that I failed to do so, for at that moment sleep
would have been death. But I did not know this for another five seconds,
and during that eternity I was back on Earth, seeking what comfort I
could from the past.
No one ever discovered Laika's origin, though the Observatory
staff made a few enquiries and I inserted several advertisements in the
Pasadena newspapers. I found her a lost and lonely ball of fluff, huddled
by the roadside one summer evening when I was driving up to Palomar.
Though I have never liked dogs, or indeed any animals, it was
impossible to leave this helpless little creature to the mercy of the
passing cars. With some qualms, wishing that I had a pair of gloves, I
picked her up and dumped her in the baggage compartment. I was not
going to hazard the upholstery of my new '92 Vik
1
, and felt that she
could do little damage there. In this, I was not altogether correct.
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When I had parked the car at the Monastery - the astronomers'
residential quarters, where I'd be living for the next week - I inspected
my find without much enthusiasm. At that stage, I had intended to hand
the puppy over to the janitor, but then it whimpered and opened its eyes.
There was such an expression of helpless trust in them that - well, I
changed my mind.
Sometimes I regretted that decision, though never for long. I had
no idea how much trouble a growing dog could cause, deliberately and
otherwise. My cleaning and repair bills soared, I could never be sure of
finding an unravaged pair of socks or an unchewed copy of the
Astrophysical Journal. But eventually Laika was both housetrained and
Observatory-trained: she must have been the only dog ever to be
allowed inside the two-hundred-inch dome. She would lie there quietly
in the shadows for hours, while I was up in the cage making
adjustments, quite content if she could hear my voice from time to time.
The other astronomers became equally fond of her (it was old Dr.
Anderson who suggested her name), but from the beginning she was my
dog, and would obey no one else. Not that she would always obey me.
She was a beautiful animal about ninety-five per cent Alsatian
2
. It
was that missing five per cent, I imagine, that led to her being
abandoned. (I still feel a surge of anger when I think of it, but since I
shall never know the facts, I may be jumping to false conclusions.)
Apart from two dark patches over the eyes, most of her body was a
smoky gray, and her coat was soft as silk. When her ears were pricked
up, she looked incredibly intelligent and alert, sometimes I would be dis-
cussing spectral types or stellar evolution with my colleagues, and it
would be hard to believe that she was not following the conversation.
Even now, I cannot understand why she became so attached to me,
for I have made very few friends among human beings. Yet when I
returned to the Observatory after an absence, she would go almost
frantic with delight, bouncing around on her hind legs and putting her
paws on my shoulders - which she could reach quite easily - all the
while uttering small squeaks of joy which seemed highly inappropriate
from so large a dog. I hated to leave her for more than a few days at a
time, and though I could not take her with me on overseas trips, she
accompanied me on most of my shorter journeys. She was with me
when I drove north to attend that ill-fated seminar at Berkeley.
We were staying with university acquaintances, they had been
polite about it, but obviously did not look forward to having a monster in
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the house. However, I assured them that Laika never gave the slightest
trouble and rather reluctantly they let her sleep in the living room. "You
needn't worry about burglars tonight," I said. "We don't have any in
Berkeley," they answered, rather coldly.
In the middle of the night, it seemed that they were wrong. I was
awakened by a hysterical, high-pitched barking from Laika which I had
heard only once before - when she had first seen a cow, and did not
know what on earth to make of it. Cursing, I threw off the sheets and
stumbled out into the darkness of the unfamiliar house. My main thought
was to silence Laika before she roused my hosts - assuming that this was
not already far too late. If there had been an intruder, he would certainly
have taken flight by now. Indeed, I rather hoped that he had.
For a moment I stood beside the switch at the top of the stairs,
wondering whether to throw it.
Then I growled, "Shut up, Laika!" and flooded the place with light.
She was scratching frantically at the door, pausing from time to
time to give that hysterical yelp. "If you want out," I said angrily,
"there's no need for all that fuss." I went down, shot the bolt, and she
took off into the night like a rocket.
It was very calm and still, with a waning Moon struggling to pierce
the San Francisco fog. I stood in the luminous haze, looking out across
the water to the lights of the city, waiting for Laika to come back so that
I could chastise her suitably. I was still waiting when, for the second
time in the twentieth century, the San Andreas Fault woke from its
sleep
3
.
Oddly enough, I was not frightened - at first. I can remember that
two thoughts passed through my mind, in the moment before I realized
the danger. Surely, I told myself, the geophysicists could have given us
some warning. And then I found myself thinking, with great surprise,
"I'd no idea that earthquakes make so much noise!"
It was about then that I knew that this was no ordinary quake, what
happened afterward, I would prefer to forget. The Red Cross did not take
me away until quite late the next morning, because I refused to leave
Laika. As I looked at the shattered house containing the bodies of my
friends, I knew that I owed my life to her, but the helicopter pilots could
not be expected to understand that, and I cannot blame them for thinking
that I was crazy, like so many of the others they had found wandering
among the fires and the debris.
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After that, I do not suppose we were ever apart for more than a few
hours. I have been told - and I can well believe it - that I became less and
less interested in human company, without being actively unsocial or
misanthropic. Between them, the stars and Laika filled all my needs. We
used to go for long walks together over the mountains, it was the
happiest time I have ever known. There was only one flaw, I knew,
though Laika could not, how soon it must end.
We had been planning the move for more than a decade. As far
back as the nineteen-sixties it was realized that Earth was no place for an
astronomical observatory. Even the small pilot instruments on the Moon
had far outperformed all the telescopes peering through the murk and
haze of the terrestrial atmosphere. The story of Mount Wilson, Palomar,
Greenwich
4
, and the other great names was coming to an end, they
would still be used for training purposes, but the research frontier must
move out into space.
I had to move with it, indeed, I had already been offered the post of
Deputy Director, Farside Observatory. In a few months, I could hope to
solve problems I had been working on for years. Beyond the
atmosphere, I would be like a blind man who had suddenly been given
sight.
It was utterly impossible, of course, to take Laika with me. The
only animals on the Moon were those needed for experimental purposes,
it might be another generation before pets were allowed, and even then it
would cost a fortune to carry them there - and to keep them alive.
Providing Laika with her usual two pounds of meat a day would, I
calculated, take several times my quite comfortable salary.
The choice was simple and straightforward. I could stay on Earth
and abandon my career. Or I could go to the Moon - and abandon Laika.
After all, she was only a dog. In a dozen years, she would be dead,
while I should be reaching the peak of my profession. No sane man
would have hesitated over the matter, yet I did hesitate, and if by now
you do not understand why, no further words of mine can help.
In the end, I let matters go by default
5
. Up to the very week I was
due to leave, I had still made no plans for Laika. When Dr. Anderson
volunteered to look after her, I accepted numbly, with scarcely a word of
thanks. The old physicist and his wife had always been fond of her, and I
am afraid that they considered me indifferent and heartless - when the
truth was just the opposite. We went for one more walk together over the
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hills, then I delivered her silently to the Andersons, and did not see her
again.
Take-off was delayed almost twenty-four hours, until a major flare
storm had cleared the Earth's orbit, even so, the Van Allen belts were
still so active that we had to make our exit through the North Polar Gap.
It was a miserable flight, apart from the usual trouble with
weightlessness, we were all groggy with antiradiation drugs. The ship
was already over Farside before I took much interest in the proceedings,
so I missed the sight of Earth dropping below the horizon. Nor was I
really sorry, I wanted no reminders, and intended to think only of the
future. Yet I could not shake off that feeling of guilt, I had deserted
someone who loved and trusted me, and was no better than those who
had abandoned Laika when she was a puppy, beside the dusty road to
Palomar.
The news that she was dead reached me a month later. There was
no reason that anyone knew, the Andersons had done their best, and
were very upset. She had just lost interest in living, it seemed. For a
while, I think I did the same, but work is a wonderful anodyne, and my
program was just getting under way. Though I never forgot Laika, in a
little while the memory ceased to hurt.
Then why had it come back to haunt me, five years later, on the far
side of the Moon? I was searching my mind for the reason when the
metal building around me quivered as if under the impact of a heavy
blow. I reacted without thinking, and was already closing the helmet of
my emergency suit when the foundations slipped and the wall tore open
with a short-lived scream of escaping air. Because I had automatically
pressed the General Alarm button, we lost only two men, despite the fact
that the tremor - the worst, ever recorded on Farside - cracked all three
of the Observatory's pressure domes.
It is hardly necessary for me to say that I do not believe in the
supernatural, everything that happened has a perfectly rational
explanation, obvious to any man with the slightest knowledge of
psychology. In the second San Francisco earthquake, Laika was not the
only dog to sense approaching disaster, many such cases were reported.
And on Farside, my own memories must have given me that heightened
awareness, when my never sleeping subconscience detected the first
faint vibrations from within the Moon.
The human mind has strange and labyrinthine ways of going about
its business, it knew the signal that would most swiftly rouse me to the
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knowledge of danger. There is nothing more to it than that, though in a
sense one could say that Laika woke me on both occasions, there is no
mystery about it, no miraculous warning across the gulf that neither man
nor dog can ever bridge.
Of that I am sure, if I am sure of anything. Yet sometimes I wake
now, in the silence of the Moon, and wish that the dream could have
lasted a few seconds longer - so that I could have looked just once more
into those luminous brown eyes, brimming with an unselfish,
undemanding love I have found nowhere else in this or in any other
world.
NOTES
1
92 Vik - марка легкового автомобиля
2
Alsatian - восточноевропейская овчарка
3
the San Andreas Fault woke from its sleep - вероятно, Кларк имеет в
виду сильное землетрясение в Сан-Франциско в 1906 году, в ре-
зультате которого была разрушена значительная часть города.
4
Fault (геол.) - разлом, сдвиг (породы).
5
Mount
Wilson,
Palomar,
Greenwich
-
астрономические
обсерватории.
6
I let matters go by default - зд. решил, что уладится без меня.
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